Thanks. Im a little understand, a little dont understand .
Is transference normal or not? Is natural process?Why it happened?
I know my doctor and me both had hard time , and I think if my doctor felt my attachment to her and had hard time,she could to help me to stop emailing to her so often.She could to say "Name, I see how you happy to be one of my patients,I see how you attached to me.Thank you for you positive feelings.I understand you.But... Can you to send messages to me not so often? Thank you!"It helped me also and I hadnot such stressful and painful situation now.
All my life I have strong attachment to some people in my life.I have strong attachment to to just people I know them, they kind with me , they and me have many same things in our life what connect us.Those people are always so kind with me,they understand me.I have not hard time with my attachment to those some people in my life.My doctor is first person who gave me hard time with my attachment.She stoped our relationship between patient and doctor,and she feel good now.But I still have hard time because I left alone with my health problem, and I look for way how I can to be one of her patients again.Yes. Not just my doctor is naturopathic physician in our area.We have others naturopathic physicians,other healers.But, as I said you early I will can to found such great doctor, like she.My doctor is my dream doctor.All my life I had dream about such doctor.Finally dream came true.And lived just 2 months!Its so sad story!
Yes, sometime I has visits to her website, to www.steadyhealth.com
, where she wrote nice information.
I dont think I was on depended on my doctor.I know almost everything what she recommend to me, because I also natural person.My mama is as my doctor,but without diploma. I think I had emotional band.
Now I see my mistake.I show all my positive feelings,how Im happy to be one of her patients,how I appreciated so fast! If I was patient,I show so slowly my attachment to my doctor everything was fine now And I didnot suffer from emotion pain now.Also I have noticed this situation made me stronger and more careful.If I will meet onother doctor and will feel such attachment to her or to him.I will be so so carefull with my attachment and this person.I understand her as person, but I dont understand her as doctor.She left me alone durring her treatment!I stil take her treatment if somthing happened worsewhat I have to do? I cannot to call or to emailing to her more.I dont want make her mad at me more and give hard time again.She need rest from me matbe month,maybe two, maybe year.I dont know.And I think I felt strong attachment to my doctor to as person, no to as doctor.Because she is also ukrainian.She knows our Ukraine history.Her brother lives in Ukraine.My doctor like gardening and me love work in my garden.And I feel how she keep distance,she doesnot keep talks about life,about Ukraine.We were.just as doctor and patient.Now everything much worse I cannot to be as her patient also.Doctor its very sad story!I feel so sorry for my Doctor, she didnot understand me and she still doesnot understand me.Its o.k.
Maybe my doctor dislike people, who happy to meet her in their life who show her their positive feelings,who feel attachment to her.I didnot wait for such behaviour from her!
But Life gave me nice lesson and made me stronger!
So,Sarah, can I to come back to my Doctor? If yes what the best way ?I a little dont understand your first answer.
Thanks for your help and this time!