Thanks for your question. many of your symptoms sound as if they are linked to your panic attacks and I would like to offer a way forward for you, although they will take some effort on your own part. I would suggest that you consider how much support you feel you have from your partner before you decide to finish the relationship - if you are supporting each other, it may not be a good time.
OK, so what do I think is happening here? We normally process away our daily stress through our dreams, during REM sleep - Rapid Eye Movement sleep. What can happen if the anxieties are too strong to process, is that the brain awakens and you notice the nightmares. The anxieties that you may be trying to process away during your sleep could be memories from your childhood, when you were a small helpless child in the care of an alcoholic mother. Without being judgemental towards you mum, who obviously had her own stuff going on, that's a scary place for child to be. We can only hold such emotional memories in our subconscious mind for so long until they start to knock on the door of consciousness, causing symptoms of anxiety and stress, in order to be heard. So what can you do about this? I suggest that you see an EMDR therapist, which stands for Eye Movement Desensitisation and Reprocessing. The therapist encourages you to face your memories in a supportive and careful way, processing them away as we do naturally at night time using a simulation of Rapid Eye Movement (REM). You can find more information and a therapist local to you at www.emdr.com When the memories are gone, the anxiety symptoms should go and you can see which of your symptoms, if any, are left. You may even find that you don't need your tablets, but you must always consult your doctor before you change your does. I do hope this is helpful, please press accept if this is valuable information for you. With Best Wishes, Sarah