Anthony, There was a great psychiatrist named Viktor Frankl. He wrote a book that was included in the list of the 50 greatest books of the 20th century, Man's Search for Meaning
. He wrote it after coming out of the concentration camps as skin and bones. He wrote about what being HUMAN is even in a place like that. He started a type of therapy called Logotherapy. It's still practiced today and there are conferences of these practitioners in Europe every year. It's a therapy based on seeking to find the meaning in one's actions and the meaning in one's relationships and the actions of others and ultimately, in one's life. Why do I bring this up?
Because Frankl died in his 90s, a heralded individual. He did
not pretend that even after all these years, books, and patients, he understood what makes humans do what humans do in a complete fashion. It is not for us to be able to understand it so well. That you want to understand her is only as valuable as your willingness to take the years and years to build and understanding.
If she were so simple you could understand her so easily, you wouldn't be as interested in her. But I want you to turn this whole discussion inward. Turn the lens on yourself and who you are as a human being. That was Frankl's greatness. That's what separated him from the others of Vienna pre-war. He lived and as he lived, he turned that lens inward and learned about human life from learning about himself.
So, I'm so glad you're going to take this time in Malta to test yourself in your life. Work on being as interested in what makes you do what you do and think what you think and feel what you feel and believe what you believe as you are about her!
It's been a pleasure so far! Dr. Mark