Hi, I can imagine how worried and anxious you must have been about your condition. It sounds like you may have anxiety and phobia. Perhaps, your intense anxiety may have to do with some stress
. You may try some or all of the following to reduce anxiety - 1. Exercise moderately, but regularly, 2. Eat healthy but delicious meals, 3. Regularize your sleep cycle, 4. Don't drink to excess or abuse drugs, 5. Spend some time every day in play, 6. Develop recreational outlets that encourage creativity, 7. Distance yourself from destructive situations or people, 8. Practice mindfulness meditation
, or walk, or an intimate talk, every day, 9. Allow yourself to feel pride in your accomplishments, 10, Listen to compliments and expression of affection, 11. Build and use a support system, 12. Pay more attention to small pleasures and sensations, 13. Yoga, meditation, Acupuncture, Guided imagery, Creative art therapy and massage therapy may help. The book "The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Bourne" may be helpful for you to work on anxiety at home.
If you are open to counseling,
you may benefit from having a Cognitive-Behavior therapy (CBT). CBT is a most effective therapy for anxiety. CBT for anxiety consists of Self-Monitoring, Relaxation strategies, Exposure treatments, Cognitive therapy. The book Worry Trap by Dr. Lejune may be helpful to manage your anxiety. You may also check the link from ANXIETY DISORDERS ASSOCIATION OF AMERICA(http://www.adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/social-anxiety-disorder) for resources. You may find a specialist in your area from the link - (http://www.adaa.org/findatherapist).
I hope you get well.
Please let me know if you have more questions or I have overlooked any. Warm regards,