Hi Casey- I see you are offline however, I have read your question and offer the following: The emotional aspects of illness can be very complicated and it appears that you are adrift in what sounds like a mild to moderate depression for which you should receive evaluation and treatment. If you are receiving IV therapy, this can also effect your mood so you probably need to see someone that is trained to help in these areas and understand the comprehensive picture. That would be a Psychiatrist who would be able to evaluate whether or not you need some medication to help you through this difficult time. I see that have a support system,,,,,which is great but I again suggest that you add a Psychiatrist just to make sure that you are getting the comprehensive care you deserve. Ask your attending Doctor for a referral or feel free to contact me if you need referral assistance. All I need is your Zip Code.
I wish you the best,