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I am sorry to hear about the problems you are experiencing in your marriage. The fact that you have experienced your husband having a pattern of acting in these disrespectful and uncaring ways, as well as having had affairs suggests that there are huge problems in your relationship that have not been addressed and/or problems in his life that he is trying to avoid.
It is also important for you to realize that you do not deserve to be treated in this way. While you cannot control what your husband decides to do, you can work on you. Individual therapy could be helpful for both of you. In addition, couples therapy can often be a way to discover whether the relationship is able to be fixed or not. Either way, it will take time for him to earn your trust back, if both of you decide to try again, as trust is something that can be lost quickly but takes a period of time and trustworthy actions to earn. You may find the book, After the Affair
to be helpful in coping with this.
His moving out of the home in this way suggests that he may not be taking much responsibility for his actions. In order for him to be able to change his behavior as well as avoid cheating in the future, he will need to be willing to face his issues. You cannot make him change. However, you could ask him to attend individual therapy to work on this, in part for him to show you that he is motivated to change. Past behaviors tend to predict future behaviors, unless the individual takes responsibility for their actions and works on changing. If he is to earn your trust back, he will need to show you through his actions that he is remorseful, (not just blaming it on excuses), has learned something from this experience, and is trying to change.
One thing I would add is that it seems that you have been doing quite a bit of emotional work about this relationship. In order for this to be a healthy relationship, we would expect your partner to do a relatively equal amount of emotional work (if you balance it out over time). This may be one way to evaluate if someone is committed to a relationship and to changing in order to make the relationship work. You deserve someone who will put the work into the relationship as well, since it takes two people to make it work. Also, I definitely believe in trusting your gut. It is often a very good indicator of red flags that should not be ignored. Feelings of love tend to be very irrational, while the gut is a good barometer of danger, both physical and emotional. I hope this is helpful and I wish you the best.
Remember that love is a verb. Simply telling someone you love them is not love; it requires acting in a consistently loving way. You may want to ask yourself whether this man is acting in a loving way to you. If not, then remind yourself that you deserve to be loved and treated with respect. Start by treating yourself this way. I hope this answer is helpful. Please let me know if I can clarify further.