Because we are in helping professions, by definition, that is what we do. What has eroded your trust so badly, and caused you so much anxiety?
Excuse me, I meant to type hostility, instead of anxiety, however it may also apply.
What is going on in your life, basically?
Basically, abuses by professionals; the deliberate causation of physical and emotional pain and suffering, deliberate causing of stess,discomfort,confusion,and the refusal to alleviate physical,emotional,and psychological pain. I have been refused support of any kind by professionals in the helping professions. I have not threatened anything. I have tolerated much, I have asked for little, yet continue to be harassed. Failing to be treated fairly, and continuing to be abused,I have attempted,suicide-many times and many times I have not made them aware of my attempts.
The constant threat of physician malintent effectively destroys my confidence and hope for anykind of a normal life. Furthermore,I believe this to be their intent, they wish me harm.Do they wish me dead? Iwill oblige.
Are you there?
No, I assure you that they mean you no harm. Why do they refuse to help you?
Because I do not trust .
Do they not realize that I have been married to a man who I can not trust,have never been able to trust?
I used to have a father in law who told me to always be very very nice to doctors."you always be very very nice to doctors."He was a horribly depressive negative man. He was a very depressive man,very unloving man.He had a strong influance on people.I have known of adults who have asked his forgiveness for perceived wrongs.He was very much like Pat in that people strove to please him ,.though no one ever could.Nothing ever pleased him,and nothing ever pleased Pat. Nothing ever could.
Intimidation was his method of control and intimidation is Pats method of control.Intimidation is the method of control doctors use on me. I will rather die than give in to methods of intimidation.So be it.
Unfortunately, I have not been given a choice, Ihave not been offered an alternative, I either comply or not.I do or die. At this point I would rather die.
I will contemplate on methods.Do I electricute myself or do I hang myself? Do I overdose or do I slice myself? Or maybe I let doctors kill me? Iam sure they will.
At this point I am afraid all that I can offer you is encouragement to please contact a mental health professional ASAP and offer you this number. National Hotline 1-800-448-3000
I wish that I could help you further, but I am not allowed.