My 21 years old son, has fixations upon boys. It began at around 9/10 years of age, the mother of his affections asked that he leave her son alone as it was disturbing him. Some months later they moved away. Since then there have been a number and when he was 17/18 he "cracked up" on holiday with 4 other friends, one of whom had become the latest object of his affections. He didn't attend school for his last year. Suffering from Panic
attacks, depression, social anxiety
, suicide threats. His mother and i ( separated for 10 years ) did
not think he could go on to university, but he did, coped with his first year, moved in to halls of residence and made friends. He managed to tour europe for 5 weeks with a male friend ( who is now also the object of his affections and knows my son feels this way ) this friends has a girlfriend, one of the group. He returned from europe, saying he felt good ( he looked well and had bleached his hair,blonde ) and almost immediately went off to a 4 day music festival with most of this group of friends. Of course, the male friend and girlfriend wanted to be together and went off so my son felt yet again isolated, and all the negative symptoms returned, worse than ever. Now he has taken an apartment near the university with the male friend and a girl ( one of the group but not the girlfriend ). They plan to move in, in a few weeks. He is now again suffering, panic attacks, suicidal, sick to the stomach. he was on medication for depression, he stopped taking them. He was seeing a doctor but he did not mention the fixation problem, only that he had depression and OCD. That was months ago Now after his latest visit to a GP, his is on Prozac. My son seems to think he has every disorder going, including Schizophrenia
( i pray not ) He feels he will only get worse, that there is no cure or end to the way he feels. He believes he is bisexual, he is a virgin and ( in his own words ) petrified of women, he said if a women made a play, he would freak out. I am an old father, i am desperate to have more understanding. The one good thing is his university has excellent mental health support,
he has an initial assessment with someone next week. If he finds the strength to go.