Thanks for bringing your question to JustAnswer.
You have a very complicated situation, and we will not be able to solve everything online, but I would like to address your memory problems.
In your list of medications, you list both Xanax AND Clonozapam. It is somewhat dangerous and very unusual to be taking two benzodiazapines at the same time. This alone could be causing your mental confusion, memory problems, etc. Both of these meds are habit-forming, the Xanax especially.
Trazadone is also very sedating and can be adding to your problems. To be taking Buspar on top of two benzodiazepines is also very odd: it is usually prescribed instead of the more sedating, and habit-forming drugs.
You asked for honesty, and I will give you my honest opinion as a registered nurse with many years experience with psychiatric medications:
You need to take every single medication you are taking...including the supplements...put them all in a bag, and take them to the one doctor who has known you the longest and knows you the best, XXXXX XXXXX him to go through them and check for drug interactions. Do not leave even one of them at home. Some good pharmacies will also do this service for people, without charge.
You need to have one doctor filtering and approving all the changes to your meds that other doctors are making. It seems like one hand doesn't know what the other is doing.
You will not be able to think clearly enough to make good decisions about your health problems until you get these medications cleared up.
Please have the "brown bag medication review" (as it's called) done as soon as possible!
I wish you the best,