Dear Dr's. - I am a 63 year old woman who was blessed with an abusive mother, and both she and my father were alcoholic & died at an early age. I have (had) 3 siblings): a brother who died at the age of 9 of peritonitus (sp) or lack of supervision ( a ruptured appendix which they did
not notice). My sisters were assigned by the state of Florida to my maternal grandparents and I, my paternal who immediately found an orphanage which would take me. I was there for just over a year, during which time my brother died. I ran away from the orphanage and due to my maternal grandparents, had a wonderful home with lifelong friends until they got into a tif about how much they were paying the "care-takers. At that time (the end of my sophomore year in HS), I was returned to my maternal grandparents. He was a criminal atty and and very serious opinions about why men and women were put on this earth (sex). He too was an alcoholic. I left them at the beginning of my senior year, got a job and lived on my own. Very depressing) At the age of 17 I married my 1st husband who I found out was very physically and mentally abusive. (VERY!!!) After 14 years, 4 boys who were getting older, and fear for my life, I left him, went to a shelter and filed for a divorce. He continued to harass me for about 3 years after our divorce, 1 year after my re-marriage to Tom. We have now been married fo0 31 years, very happily for the most part. Then at the age of 50 I had a heart, developed COPD, a number of ruptured discs in my back, both hips replaced, open heart surgery, several bone broken from various falls, two mild strokes
, several TIA's etc. Now we have reached Oct., 2009. Tom had two sons when we married, and we raised both of them along with my 4. They were very young when we married and were both precious children who grew to adults who I loved as my own. Tommy died in October of 2009, then in Jan. I was in a very serious auto accident. First I almost died, then almost lost my right leg and now they want to do a knee replacement. I also lost 106 pounds. Three weeks after I was released from 5 months of hospitalization & rehab, Alan (Tom's other son) died. I had lapses of memory right after that, but didn't know it until recently. Then 3 weeks later my baby sister (my best friend always) passed suddenly of a stroke. My husband and I went to
Georgia for the services, of course. During our stay in Georgia, the day of Barby's funeral I walked in my sleep in the hall of the hotel and fell on the tile floor. The next morning I woke up and could not breathe (My SATs were 62%). I was taken to the hospital and admitted with a diagnosis of pneumonia. 7 days later I was released and the doctor said he was only trying to get me well enough for the trip back to Tampa. That was just over a month ago. I have NO short term memory, can't make decisions, very, very depressed (I forgot to tell you that I had been seeing this doc for 8 years for depression.) My leg is still not much use and very painful, but I just can't face more painful surgery after the surgery required after the accident, the pneumonia, the loss of mental capabilities and the loss of 3 very close, loved ones in the months since Tommy first passed away. five months in the hospital and rehab. and no memory of my sister's funeral or the three days following while in the hospital. then laying there with the blinds closed, the lights off and the door shut.
The doctor said I had the equivalent of a nervous breakdown (in lay terms) and so I found this site trying to find out exactly what that was. I really didn't mean to be so "wordy", and there are alot of things that I left out in my poor attempts at brieviety. I hope you can give me some help as far as what might have happened to me, what is wrong with me now and what I should do to get some help. Thank you in advance for your expert help!!