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I think that you're really feeling vulnerable, and am glad that you've recognized that and done some things to protect yourself.
It sounds like your gut is screaming for you to exit the scene, but you're lonely and are having wishful thoughts.
I also think that she seems to be a gal who is trying to figure herself out, but isn't quite there yet. You can't beg a woman to date you....sure...we've all grovelled at one point...but has it ever worked? Not that I know of
I think that you need to distract yourself and get some distance so that you're in a stronger place to make a decision with.
How does that sound?
I still like her though, what if she gets back to me
I wouldn't trust that she has the relationship skills to be in a committed relationship with you.
The chat notice keeps saying that you're stepping in and out of chat and typing...are you typing a response?
Forgot to tell you that i'm going on holidays in a weeks time, camino de santiago in spain, its an old pilgrimage route in spain, it probably will be a pilgrimage for me, you sound very negative on the whole thing,
I understand that you like her, but a relationship needs trust and respect, and from what you tell me, these things are missing, so I am more negative than positive on the relationship.
On your pilgrimage, I think you'll learn alot about yourself and come back more confident in what you want.
Can thes things change if perhaps she does contact me again
Sure. If she contacts you as a stable, single woman who has put all of the other men out of her life, things would be different.
It would be a place for you to start a new relationship.
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If i had worked on relationship more when i was with her and asked her to stop and tell her the relationship was in trouble due to her actions, i didn't have relationship experience enough to do this or maybe i was afraid i wouldn't get another girl as good as her, i had big problems with my mother as a youngster growing up, i always have this fear im going to be single, how do i get over this, is this fair to ask you this as this is like a second question, are these questions related
Hey John, This really is a separate question and should go onto a new thread. If you put it in the Q & A section with my name on it, I'll make sure to look for it. Anna