I am wondering if your agoraphobia
could be assisted by EMDR therapy, which is a therapy that allows the beliefs and negative emotions held in the subconscious mind to be released. These beliefs and emotions stem from a traumatic experience which can be anything that has happened or been heard and misinterpreted by the subconscious mind. You may be able to identify reasons why this fear may have started, or you may not, and for this therapy, it doesn't matter either way, as the therapist would guide your subconscious mind to work it all put for you. Normally, when anxiety
is not at high levels, we process away the general anxiety of the day during the night, as the subconscious mind never sleeps. This often doesn't happen with highly emotional situations, yet the brain may be trig to process it away at night unsuccessfully, hence the broken sleep or nightmares
. the role of the subconscious mind is always to protect the self, so it sounds like your subconscious mind refuses to allow you to go outside because it believes it is dangerous. When the subconscious mind believes that you aren't listening to it, it shouts even louder and the symptoms become more fierce, which is what you describe. The beliefs are irrational, yet they are very powerful. They can be let go of so that you can out again -you would need to be taking your medications whilst you carry out this therapy, but it may be possible to reduce or even stop some or all of them with the consent of your doctor, if EMDR is successful. You can find more info about EMDR at www.emdria.com, where you can also find a qualified therapist local to yourself. I do hope this information is helpful to you. It would be worth giving it a try so that you can go out again and see your beautiful country more often and start to live your life again in a more positive way.