If you're depressed, get medical treatment for it. If you have PTSD, I recommend EMDR treatment. If you've done all that in the 10 years you've been dealing with the abuse, then I'd say to lay it down and walk away.
Sometimes people can get too caught up in recovering from abuse. You don't have to identify yourself as a survivor forever. If you've dealt with this for 10 years, I'd say to stop dealing with it. Walk away and decide what you want in your life. Don't let it define who you are in sickness or in health.
Not speaking to people and being isolated is usually more about depression and anxiety
after 10 years of treatment for sexual abuse. I suggest you look in those areas and 'stop' recovering from the sexual abuse. It might just be the mental shakeup that can jump start you into a new future.
Mushrooms won't do a thing for you.
My best to you.
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