Some recovering people will tell you to stay away from all mood and mind altering substances like Adderall and Klonopin.
However, many people self medicate when they have symptoms of psychiatric issues and this can cause drug addiction in the process.
Once you are clean, evaluating what you need to do to stay mentally healthy should be a joint venture between you, your physician, and possibly your sponsor.
Many recovering individuals continue to take mood and mind altering substances as prescribed, because NOT to do so may lead them back into an attempt to self medicate again, with substances that can cause relapse.
So, I would recommend you work closely with your MD and sponsor on this. Most sponsors understand the self medication aspect and can assist you in accepting the decision to take a prescribed medication.
It is really important that the Klonopin does not lead you back to the opiates, however, and that is why you need another person involved to help you stay honest with yourself.
As I am sure you know, the disease can sneak up on you, particularly if you begin to keep secrets. What I mean is, the Klonopin itself may not be as serious if you are sharing this information with a recovering person to assist when needed. And if you find yourself taking more than prescribed, discuss this with your sponsor as well.
I hope this helps. Gina
Thank you for responding. It sounds as if you are very motivated to remain clean and sober and be honest with yourself, as well. A sponsor should have at least two years clean and sober, and have worked the twelve steps. This is the person with whom you share all your secrets, which helps you stay clean. If your physician is recommending the Adderall and Klonopin, it does not have to be viewed as hypocritical. I know you know whether you truly need it or not. A sponsor helps to bounce things off of, and helps you make decisions about what is the best way to remain clean. "Using" Adderall is a little different than taking Adderall as a prescription from your physician. It is not something that necessarily need to be shared in an open meeting, as long as you are sharing it with even one person in recovery.
I really like your idea about being a counselor. Many recovering people make excellent therapists. You know, been there, done that!
Letting someone else dole out your Klonopin creates a type of codependence upon them and you. It is best if you do not do this. Perhaps regulation through your sponsor, by calling him when you have taken your medication for the day, can help you stay honest about this.
The longer you are clean, the less you will struggle with this issue. I hope you plan to work the 12 step program as this opens up many spiritual and positive emotional avenues for you. After a while, you may not need any medication at all, and if you do if will get easier to regulate it.
Remember, recovery is a WE program not an I program. This is the accountability aspect and the help that comes from those who have been there. They can also help you make some decisions about what you need to do next to help yourself.
Let me know if you have other questions. Gina