Thanks for your answer. It is quite helpful. I feel like the thoughts are transient. I am a very trusting person and recently married to a wonderful man. But sometimes I also worry that some of the people I know socially and professionally are not open about their sexual orientation. If I know them professionally, then I don't worry, because I believe friendly, respectful boundaries are good for the work/school envoirnment. But when I focus on other people I know socially, it worries me. Why would someone not be open about their sexual orientation in NYC? it doesn't make sense because there is not much discrimination and you would think that being open about it would help them find their same sex partner - which is more difficult because they are in the minority. Anyway, I would consider this to be transient too - and I don't worry about myself or my husband - except that he is attractive and gay men probably inquire about his sexual orientation... I just think too much, and try to apply reason to situations, but it detracts from my other work.
I have tried Risperdal in low dosages in the past, which improves these worries, which in turn helps with the anxiety, but it does not improve the procrastination. If there was a parallel to be made between depression withdrawl/procrastination/avoidance and negative symptoms of schizophenia? Which would Risperdal be helpful - or would another antipsychotic specifically target these symptoms? My doctors are not questioning my diagnosis of dysthymia/major depression right now, I would really like to know more about how to focus on my work and be able to finish tasks, and not be distracted - there are times when my life feels like a case of 'writer's block.'