Welcome to Just Answer.
I cannot officially diagnose you, as we are on the internet, and I am privy to only pieces of the information that you have provided me. But, with the information that I have, it does seem, like you may have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, which may have been triggered, due to your recent breakup with your girlfriend.
I wanted to give you some information on OCD and what it is. There are two parts of OCD. The first is obsessions and the second is compulsions. You can have the obsessions without the compulsions and vice versa. But, here are some common things that can happen, with a person who has obsessive and intrusive thoughts.
- Fear of acting on an impulse to harm oneself
- Fear of acting on an impulse to harm others
- Fear of violent or horrific images in one’s mind
- Fear of blurting out obscenities or insults
- Fear of stealing things
- Fear of being responsible for something terrible happening
- Fear of harming others because of not being careful enough
So, you do fit some of the criteria that are set, for this particular disorder.
The treatment for OCD, in the beginning is, finding a well trained CBT or Cognitive Behavioral Therapist in your area and medicines.
Some of the medicines that are usually given for OCD are antidepressants like Prozac, Zoloft and other SSRI's.
To get accurately diagnosed, you would have to either find a good therapist in your area, or find a psychiatrist who can do a full evaluation and provide medicines for treatment. 7 out of 10 people who do either CBT or antidepressant treatment and sometimes both, end up having a good decrease in symptoms, to where they find it more manageable and the obsessions are not so intrusive that it is affecting their ability to function in life.
I do hope this helps some.