The doctor did give me anti-depressants but I do not want to try them because of the long list of side effects!
I have seeked help from my university but have not found them that useful. I just want to feel my normal, happy, studious self again and so far cannot imagine a good future for myself! It seems like a have tried a lot of things but no luck or probably i have not been patient enough.
I really feel that I am losing it and I think my family are worried about that too. I often have irrational, suicidal thoughts and just feel so totally hopeless!