From your brief description you may be under going what is called a gender identity disorder. It is not a disease, but is commonly described by patients that are a man trapped in woman's body or vice versa. To try to help you repress would definitely be counter therapeutic. It would be like trying to help a gay man or lesbian lpass as straight. The stress is unimaginable. In your case the goal would be to help you to stop repressing your thoughts and feelings which are in part biologically determined and come to grips with the reality, not to help you try to pass. I know what I have stated is in itself stress creating, but the alternative is significantly worse. I suggest you seek therapy from some one who is learned in GLBT community.- Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgender. I hope you consider my suggestion and move expeditiously. I wish you the best.
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