These events you are experiencing are fairly common with sexual abuse survivors, but be sure you are not suffering from a medical condition by talking with your physician.
There are a few things to do to assist you. Deep breathing exercises along with meditation
can also help. In appropriate meditation you would clear your mind of all thoughts and focus only on a specific mantra/object. You can use this method in a visual way with a candle for example, a tactile way by feeling something that is comforting such as a blanket or feather, olfactory again with numerous scented candles. There are many guided imagery cds available as well, which will take you mentally to a calm place like a beach or forest.
All these methods help to keep you calm and focus on something else.
Now, if you are comfortable with this, you might also try journal writing. Not writing about anything specific just rambling along with your thoughts. It will help relieve some of the pressure of carrying around thoughts and feelings that might be overwhelming. By writing these, they come out of your head and are easier to mange on paper. I don't know if you have ever done this, but it is very helpful for relieving stress
, imaginative goal setting, and if done daily the brain becomes trained to bring up thoughts and feelings it needs to get out.
These are a few techniques you can try on your own. If you are still overwhelmed, contact your general practitioner who can prescribe you a medication to assist until you are able to make it to your counseling appointment. I wish you the best in working on this issue. It is much better on the other side. You are a strong and courageous woman. Hope this helps. Gina