Thanks for the reply !
Well,from what you have mentioend above , it seems that your anguish over failed relationship has made you Depressed , and all these violent , destructive and abusive acts that you have been doing along with the feeling of hopelessness and helplessess and guilt and low sel esteem , are features of depression. Most of the tmes ,depressed peron would become socially withdrawn , shun away any sort of interaction with others , become irritable and snap at others without any proper reason , and as seen in your case ,the irritabilty can take destructive and violent turn as well.I am mentioning below a link which will throw more light on depression.
So, i will suggest that you consult a psychiatrist , and get yourself evauated for depression , and get started on proper treatment , because psychotherapy ( counseling in lay trems ) that you have been taking for a while cannot deal with your depression alone .
So, consult a psychiatrist , get evaluated and get started on 1 anti depressant such as effexor xr or paxil or prozac , and 1 anti anxiety
drug such as Klonopin or prozac or paxil. The combination of these two drugs need to be taken for 2- 3 months and you will become much better , while continue to seek counseling from a psychologist , and let me also mention here , that Cognitive behavioural psychotherapy is the best counseling type for depressed patients , so just get started on it.
Kindly have a look at the links below
I hope this helps..
I wish you rapid recovery to the best of health. Take care..
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