Learned knowledge or past events?
I have trouble remembering tasks that should be done atmy place of work, although I have worked there for five years and my responsibilities have not changed. I have found that I can not recall conversations with my husband and other people I talk to on a regular basis. I keep a conversation log to keep track of the important conversations, but I am having trouble keeping up with that as of the past month.
I am having trouble retaining the new information that I am learning in my college classes. As I stated already, I cannot recall conversations, both lenghty and short.
I am very slow to accomplish tasks; I can start a task and move away to retrieve something I need to complete it and completely forget about the thing I need and the task. This happens 90% of the time. It was most apparent at work where I must do a series of tasks in one shift while helping customers.Now, at home, I leave a trail of unfinished tasks and on shopping trips I forget many to get many products, despite my lists, and I leave my personal items-wallet, purse, keys, planner- in the stores frequently. My bills have gotten behind and I feel I am not in touch or in control of my mind and life any more. I am filing for a leave of absence at work because I have not been able to remember to go to work. I have been consecutively late to work and I have been going in on the wrong days, despite calendars, printed schedule sheets, and daily notes in my planner.
Attention and Concentration?
I have had attention problems in the past, but had learned to cope as well as possible and I could acheive tasks and stay organized with alot of effort and structure. My efforts are failing me now and I feel a bit helpless and very much overwhelmed when I attempt to accomplish tasks.
Sadness, lethargy, apathy?
I have not felt marked sadness. I am upset about the way I am loosing control but I have not felt any marked sadness or lethargy. I do have difficulty enjoying life because I must stay on task at all times to keep track of myself. I feel I cannot relax for fear of loosing hours of the day and forgeting about important tasks.
My father was bipolar
. My grandmother (maternal) has severe social-anxiety
-attacks. My mother has major memory loss of events in my childhood and in her life. My paternal grandmother was obsessed with weight gain and diet, and her religious beliefs.
I do not drink, I recently (within 12 months) quit smoking, but other do not use any other drugs.
The last time I took Xanax was in the fall of last year (2008). I have a bottle from my last visit with a psychiatrist over two years ago. I use them I get anxiety sickness (feels like the flu with a stomach bug), but I started deep relaxation breathing last fall and it has been very effective. I have had anxiety sickness once or twice since then, which is very good progress for me.
I have not taken any other psychiatric medication since 2005.
Thanks for following up, I hope this information is helpful.
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