Thanks for the reply .
Well, let me tell you one thing that all of us have a particular personality type , which we kind of develop during our childhood , which may be influenced due to our surroundings , our parents , close relatives ., or people we idealize , or look upto and this particular personality type remains with us throughout life , although we can try to modify it in order to be more adaptable to our milieu / environment . The problems that you have narrated in your post are actually your personality traits , and it seems that you have Boderline personality type, as you have traits such as extreme emotional variability , too much attention and value given to other people comments and opinion, fear of being judged and looked down upon, etc . And because of this personality , you are more vulnerable to get into depression and anxiety states , which somehow may effect your personal and professional life.
I am mentioning below a link which will throw more light on Boderline personality .
As far as treatment is concerned , well as i mentioned earlier you cannot change your personality completely , but you surely can modify it according to your suitability , but you will need to work hard for it.
So, i suggest you consult a clinical psychologist , and get your Psychoanalysis done by him/ her , which will confirm the Boderline personality type , and then you may get started on Psychotherapy ( counseling in lay terms ) , by the same or any other psychologist , and a very effective type of psychotherapy for managing / dealing with boderline personality is Cognitive behavioural therapy ( CBT).I am quite sure that CBT will help you in modifying your personality to the best of your use , and it will pave a way towards a successful life ahead .
I wish you best of health . Take care..
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