There used to be a time in my life when everything was clear, i was so in control of all my thoughts and actions, i spoke so correctly and never feard negatively . I felt real calm and made real connections with people. I had people come to me for advice and people like how i made them feel. Learning was so easy for me. I was able to write songs, articles paintings, and poems. I was able to focus and concentrate on task at hand until it is done. I read more books and gained a lot of insights.
I used to teach computer studies, and i would walk into the class with just a marker and i will deliver all my lectures for the day without looking into any book and i was known for my retaintive memory. My imaginations were very clear and vivid, but now i feel something is missing. I want to get back to where i used to be.
Here are some of my symptoms:
Anxiety with authority figures
Temporary loss of identity
Unable to tell a complete story without losing track
Forgetfulness - keys, names, places, event, numbers, even my own facial ID
Los of clear imagination
Dificulty focusing on an issue or object for a long time ( like good 10 mins)
Difficulty retaining infomation read or heard
Problem in my range ( determing how close or far an object is or sound)
Unable to feel what others are going through
I sing but feel like im disconnected with my audience
Feelings dont feel deep enough and thinking is very shallow, this robs me of my negotiation positions at times
What is wrong with me? and what should i do?