Could you tell me a little bit more about what you mean by, "I act more like a child...".
How specifically do you deal with rejection?
to justify the rejection in my head i react by being the worst person i can be because it hurts so much to be rejected for myself so its almost like a child who isnt being shown any love and attention will act up to get attention even if its negative the pain is unbearable .i know it stems from constant rejection from my father even in adulthood what can i do to stop the pain because its like a chain reaction once it starts i just kick back in anger .
The first step is realizing that rejection is a part of everyone's life. With that, we have to take responsibility and own our feelings. In other words -- it's not about the person who rejects you -- it's about you. Realizing that helps you to not take it out on them. For most people, that works... they feel sad and hurt but move on.
If you find you can't move on; that your feelings of pain and sadness persist, it's likely you have a low grade depression -- people with this low grade depression have a much more difficult time letting go of people; they have abandonment issues. This form of depression, called dysthymia, also creates a dependency in people-- which often ruins relationships. People with dysthymia often have problems with feeling tired a lot, having other interpersonal relationship problems and motivation.
If any of that sounds like you, you may want to consult a psyciatrist for an evaluation for antidepressant medication -- success rates are very high, and people report being MUCH happier.
I hope this answer helps. Please feel free to write back with and follow up questions.
What dose are you on and how long have you been on it?
There are other medications you can add to help with the binge eating -- talk to your Psychiatrist about which one would be best for you.
It also sounds like you'd really benefit from having someone to talk to about all of this. Have you tried counseling?
Find books and other information on your "inner child"; when you accept that you have a hurt little girl living inside of you -- and you start reparenting her, you will get better.
Just keep imagining that you are now the parent of you, when you were a little girl. You have to take care of and protect that little girl. It's your job now...
Is your Dad right? NO! So don't let him hurt that little girl anymore. YOU are in charge now. Take care of her -- she is hurt, scared, angry, confused, and is looking to you to make it better.
Make it better.
Don't make her binge, don't make her sad...