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I believe that without having a detailed psychological evaluation it would be premature for me to comment regarding the specifics of your situation,
However, here are a few things that I would recommend
1. Get evaluated and treated properly for your depression, you really cannot make anyone happy without being satisfied yourself,
2. At present it may be appropriate to let your son stay where he is, till you are yourself feeling better,
3. Work on yourself, your relationship with your spouse, and your kids, preferably in this order ....
Once your fights with your spouse reduce, ask your son to come over, without any preconceived agreement regarding him moving back,
if he feels more secure/ happy, then he is likely to consider getting back / or at least your communication / interaction with him will improve, which is what we want,
I believe that the key remains your own evaluation and treatment for depression,
You must (in addition to medications) consider regular exercise, healthy diet, and relaxing hobbies, and friend / family members that you can get back too for support,
since this will help in you getting better & staying that way in the long run :)
I can't afford to go see a spychologist and there is a waiting list to go see a spychiatrist. I don't know exactly what is wrong with me. I was taking meds but quite all of them. I also told my son that I would like to do some family therapy but doesn't even want to talk to me much.
So how do you want us to proceed here
I have provided some specific tips that may help manage depression,
Let me provide you with some links to excellent resources online that will help you fight depression without resorting to drugs,
But please remember, for severe depression drugs are very much needed along with professional help too,
Let me know if these help,
and please get back for any clarifications,
All the best, XXXXX XXXXX wishes are with you !
Remember tough times don't last, tough people do.....
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