Thank you for using the forum. My name is ***** ***** I hope to assist you today.
I am very sorry to learn of this matter.
If I understand the situation correctly, your adult children/family have taken out restraining orders (court orders) against you requiring you not to contact them.
Despite these orders you have been in contact with them, or attempted to be near them (perhaps inadvertently) multiple times, such as at your church.
I would recommend that you refrain from attempting to contact them, or visit this church in the future until the restraining order is lifted.
While alienation of an adult may be a very real psychological matter (and there may be medical assistance available to you for this), there is no legal remedy for this, and your adult family is free to make this determination for themselves.
Continued violations of the restraining orders can create more trouble for yourself (and much more mental distress) than you have already suffered. (A violation of a restraining order can even be punished by jail time).
I am very truly sorry that you are suffering such a significant family distress, and I do hope that your matter will mend itself, but until the court orders are dissolved, your best course of action is to abide by these orders and do everything within your power to avoid them (even if this means finding a new church to worship at).