I have nothing to live for. My life was destroyed a 3rd time while I was coming forward to hate crimes and sexual abuse that happened in 1998. I went to the FBI/DOJ for help, to report these hate crimes so that I could go to court, when I called to make an appointment, I was yelled at, screamed at and hung up. So I sent a letter to both the FBI asking for help but instead the only thing they addressesed was how they wouldn't investigate the operator that did that and I never asked for that, I asked she be reprimanded. These are actual hate crimes, my personal things were stolen, my art was stolen, my sources of income were destroyed so I would get evicted, while in eviction court, there was attempted murder
. I then tried the LAPD, I called to make an appointment to come in with my evidence. The cop on the phone decided it was not hate crimes and screamed at me, yelled at me and interogated me and then took my DOB with no help. I emailed the LAPD and instead of help I got a cookie cutter response. There's no where to turn for help. My only option is to go to Federal Court
but I can't get a lawyer and have to figure it out myself including typing up the lawsuit and I have more then one court case, it will take years and years and years, my careers were destroyed, my business/sources of income, I'm left sitting in these crimes and no help, I'll be 49 years old next month, what is there to live for? I can't have children and have no children, i have no sibilings and once my mother by DNA dies, that's it, I'll be an orphan. There is no help in this country from anybody and the sexual abuse in 1998, in June of this year, I found out I was overdosed by Olive View Staff and then raped by Olive View Staff and LAPD, it's on the medical reports I just got. 17 years later. I have the medical report from 1998, they only gave me 40 pages, there was 120 page report that I got in June of this year. These rapes and the sexual abuse that occurred in my home contributed to my period stopping when I was 38. I have nothing to live for, litterly, my life has been destroyed, for a 3rd time and I don't see how it's going to get repaired.