My husband and I were happily married for 15 years until he had a six-month long affair while he was traveling at work. I have been diagnosed as bipolar, with tendency to psychosis, but my illness was very controlled during my marriage. I was a successful legal secretary making about $50,000 and my husband was making between $80,000 to $100,000. After a very close suicide attempt and a psychotic break at my law firm position, I had to go on disability. My husband pays $300 per week in alimony
, and as part of our separation and maintenance agreement, I will get about one-fourth of his pension when he retires in three years. I take about 9 different medications each day, for a monthly cost of about $800, not to mention rent, doctor bills and transportation
. I have read over our Separation Agreement that was attached to our final Divorce, and it does not specify when my alimony stops. My husband is required to keep double his annual salary in life insurance
to my benefit, and I am supposed to have access to the policy
and the list of beneficiaries
, but for 10 years I have been put off my him when I ask for that proof. We are rarely ever in touch, and I don't even know if anyone has been told to notify me if he dies. He seems to have turned sullen and resentful about every dime, although I was a good and faithful wife to him, after working 10 hours a day, I put his dinner on the table and ironed his clothes for the next day, plus kept the house clean and made all my cooking from scratch. I am going to have to go in a nursing home eventually, and I am afraid it is going to be a slum if I cannot get some straight answers from him. Our divorce was final in 2008, and my lawyer retired after taking $2500 in fees and then not even representing me in court. Do I have any recourse available? I have no family, no resources, and I am terrified. Thanks for your help.