they have said that " there is no way i have cancer " " no chance of hodgkins"
to be honest i am embarassed about the whole situation.
I have let it completley take over my life.
Do you think it will work?
i know it sounds crazy and probably typical with someone with anxiety but i do not think this is all in my head.
I have even resorted to private tests to avoid asking my doctor.
the pain with alcohol
from march 2012. i have stopped alcohol
i have put on 8 pounds since january
i have a bad habit of looking up things on the internet. I read somewhere that was a sign of hodgkins disease.
When i drink alcohol , the next usually evening my neck shoulders chest area feel sore and bruised. I was in Australia at the time and went to see a GP he had not really heard of it and sent me for a chest x ray and told me he would do all the bloods they consider with lymphoma.
everything was fine i have from 17/04/2012
Total protein 78
Alk phos 99
Gamma gt 21
Red cell 4.5
White cell 12.1
as of december 2012 .
Thanks Dr Chip
I am willing to give that a try.
If you were my family GP you wouldnt be inclined to run any further tests? and would be satisfied with my health.
My GP told me last July she was confident i was a perfectly healthy girl , I have not returned she would be shocked to know a year later i am still stressing i guess.
This reaction to alcohol can just occur? I fully understand google is not the answer and my GP explained Hodgkins isnt the only explanation, even though the internet makes this out to be.
Im sorry i do not have more recent blood results these are print outs from my time in Australia, but they are more extensive than what i have had done here.
The only thing keeping me positive is that i have weight gain unfortunately and Dr Amir on here explained that no chance of lymphoma with weight gain.
As i write these all down it makes sense , i dont even have any swollen nodes to my knowledge just the normal ones everyone can feel. i have even went as far as asking my Grandmother a nurse to feel them a couple of times per week.
I will try not to be embarassed its really difficult hiding this all to myself .
i think so , only if i drink lots
i get similar symptoms with an anxiety attack
going to my gp tomorrow too make an appoitment with the councillor
Dr chip , you have made me feel better about this.
That has exactly been my MAJOR concern since March 2012, i wanted to make sure it was only from alcohol and that there was nothing else going on
I am not bothered if i have an issue with alcohol so to speak, its best to avoid drinking anyway my issue that it was something very very sinister underneath that now after 19 months , i am frightened to death if it is something i have left it too long.
You are right about google its ridiculous how i go off in a tangent when i dont have any medical qualifications whatsoever!
Thanks Dr for your knowledge and advice.
I really appreciate your time to chat with me.
Hopefully i can sleep easy from now on,
Hi Doctor Chip !
Just thought i would update you on my situation as i really appreciated your help.
I went to my GP and explained my fears, she examined my lymphnodes and could not find anything suspicious?
I also have an appointment at the " doing well clinic" and i am avoiding alcohol.
Hopefully moving on with my life! :) Thanks again!
Hi Doctor Chip , just checking in as I was made to feel better when talking to you.
I think we spoke about 3 months ago regarding my lymphoma fear-I still have it, but no new developments since we last spoke.....got to be a good thing?
just taking it day by day
No, nothing ! I have been avoiding alcohol and excercising to help my anxiety
Lol thank you doctor I know you are right after all you are the doctor!
I went to my GP last week who knows im anxious and she checked the lymph nodes in my neck just for reassurance says everything is completely normal of course with lymphoma for 22 months she said I would have and i quote " huge nodes by now" that made me feel better.
I wish i was not so anxious
No , nothing yet I guess it was because I was convinced I had a dreadful illness and not anxiety.
I have been nervous to go on medication, as I have heard about side effects.
thanks for contacting me back !
Hopefully this is the last time I need to talk to you ( in a good way)
Thanks for all your help!
It is a strange sensation like i am smelling fire smoke but obviously no fire?
my mum recently had the same thing which is weird!
Ah thankyou doctor chip , apologies for being so irrational there!
I have started cbt to get this anxiety under control i guess its not working yet lol!
Okay I see, i have a very " stuffy feeling" when I breathe in , this smoke smell has just been lingering about for two days! no headaches though.
Thankyou so much I will come to you in the future.
Hi Doctor Chip,
I hope you don't mind me contacting you, but I am feeling really down today, today marks my 2 years to the date that I started convincing myself I had hodgkins lymphoma,
I am really tired these days, could this be my anxiety? My therapy does not seem to be working for me.
No I have not yet, I wake up a lot during the night,not entirely sure why,
I have not been to my doctor for a while, as I feel seeking assurance is part of my problem. My doctor says im fine and perfectly healthy, this was a year ago right enough.
To be honest I have my good days and bad days, I logically try and tell myself what a lot of doctors and others say, that two years is a long time and I would realistically be very ill by now if not deceased...?
And I worry about everything health related, so i know i am a complete hypochondriac!
I was thinking of going just as a routine visit , to maybe get some bloods done, to make sure everything is okay, that may put my mind at rest.
Honestly, do you think I have anything to be concerned about? my main concern is if i do get diagnosed not a lot could be done for me..
pretty much , I don't feel any nodes i dont think
Thanks Dr Chip for that, When you say announced itself you mean many more symptoms and it would be obvious that I was ill, I spoke to an oncologist who said that my lymphnodes would be like softballs by now this is why he knows i dont have it,
I must sound really frustrating as I am in no way undermining your position as a doctor, just wish I could accept and move on.
Thank you for your time once again.
Thanks Dr Chip you have been great!