ok i tried to tell them, that they were right about everythign they just told me, but i also tried to tell them that i wasn't ready to do what they told me, and then i got stressed out and i could not tell them cause asperger says to me that i should not do to others what i don't want them to do to me, and i knew it would be hurtful if i told them what i was thinking(about my ego and how i felt about it). I put my own problems on my shoudlers and i couldn't see the splint in my eye, that i did the same thing they did to me, cause i wasn't truthful, and they were not truthful. they should of told me how they felt and i should of told them how i felt, but they thought i could not take it, and treated me as a child instead. all is my fault for not telling them. so then i had enough and cried out every week. I knew what i was doing to myself all along:( i just disrespected them as they disrespected me. Why do I have to give in on my rules if they don't open up and tell me how they feel, i really don't know. they never really should have had that responsibility to put my pain on their shoulders. I keep telling them what i needed, instead they just go on with their plans and ignored me, so how can i feel that i can say anything to them? i made them aware of all issues, and noone tried to treat me of it, other than ignore me, how can that be helpful?
I know this is completely irrational, is it my ego speaking?
and you can tell me all you want, i'm not going to break down. people think i'm weak but i'm strong cause i could carry all these feelings for 30 years, i can take another one:) please tell me how you feel and what exactly am i doing wrong.