think i just forgot what life is.
sleeping soon might be but working on this
hey check this. http://www.enlightenedfeelings.com/symptoms.html
this is basically the chakra system.
together with accepting emotions(ACT method) this is pretty darn good. just wish i found a way to know if there is any deep emotions left that i cannot find with the last method. i was laughing tieing up my bf just now heh. and i made a joke in the middle of this, about i can fart out with my gastritis my emotional pain:p instead of breath it out:P heh 7 hours repeatedly listening to this i'm starting to not feel as much pain.
what do you think about buried emotions? will it actually heal it? or even change the defenses? to accept your emotions? and i wonder about boredom and too much thoughts in your head. i also found that too much thoughts leads to depression.
right now i have to find a way to relive and get all emotions at once. how do i do that? just to see what is missing to get a full heal. if i heal it once will it just stay like that? also have to find out how to get creativity for a meal. haha i'm totally a different person. extremely energetic tho:P
well i had pains in all of the body parts or chakra points. but how do i find a lot of emotional stuff, this has to be tested. you sure that i don't need to find more to deal with everything? addiction to research now that's me. well this impatience is certainly something i have to deal with. well something i need to do is to say thank you thank you thank you to everyone dealing with me, for not letting me down and tell me what i need to hear. my own impatience fixed it all, with everyone as backup:) you're a huge part of it tho! bff. you can wonder what that means:p i'm so happy i did not have to put down my ethics to fix this.
very much better. i nearly forget my negative thoughts. really feels like i'm on the top of the world. i can laugh sometimes without reason, and really i do smile all the time. i feel a bit of pain in neck atm tho, but also my stomach pain feels like it's gone.
you have to remind me to do this ACT if i start to struggle!
gonna tell everyone about this, it's so awesome. can't really let things slide on the meditation front. btw you're a world saver to get people like me on the right track:) i know you were the right person from the second time i talk to you. darn life is boring without suffering. without you being a realist who knew where i would turn up.
so you're saying i was ready to be healed. you shocked me once. you realized how paranoid i was in the start? never again.
well you are a fantastic person. and btw you didn't have to be as careful. push me push me. the only thing stopping you from doing it quicker is the rules here tho. you know all the questions about diets was only cause cbt was the way to go and without a life no treatment i thought. guess i had to get a life before my diet is going on track tho. i asked questions about it cause i could not find another way to talk to you. hah guess i was not ready:) so you're totally amazing really:) talking to you saves my life and hopefully make you feel better about yourself. well it's well worth the money:)
hey yeah you know i thought you could not do anything due to rules.
i talked to you to have someone talk to, and btw i was fine for like a month doing wayne dyer. but all this waiting for institution make me really mad and really agitated. boredom made me totally frustrated. i was so obsessed on doing cbt and do as i was told that i forget why i was talking to you. also trying to save money ruin it a bit. more surpression less reality. my memory was really off as well. i had 2 years of a head filled with emotions, no wonder. blood sugar really was killing me during christmas. so what's your favorite movie? i can't remember half of this period to be honest so not much to do about it.
world war ones? anything interesting psychological in it?
no i wanna see it. stupid netflix don't have anything,
nope but seen it. one of the better ones. don't know why they let out the best films.
seem i have to look around for something else when it comes to movies unless it's all in norwegian somehow. maybe it's cause it's locked or something cuase i can search it.
just trying to find something to do for tomorrow. there must be something i can do heh. you know any good books? the movie you talked about i think is a book. i could possibly do exphil on itunes. so is there anything we have not chat about? looking for philosophs atm. that's one of the problems not being depressed. you really do not have anything to say. my delusioned world was way off for 30 yeras.
hmm how about secrets of body language documentary?
guess i read the book:) or wait it's on usenet, but need to pay:( the magus 1968 right? i got my own virus place.
take care of yourself. sleep well.