Hi again Pam
Thanks a lot for your help yesterday – I will of course rate you, but I have a few follow-up questions first, but take your time answering these. I warn you this is long.... ;0)
Yesterday, you said that “his cheerfulness with you is not just a coincidence. He is looking into your soul (eyes...the window of the soul) to connect to you on a deep, emotional level”. I can say that I have felt this often also both last week and this week, but can you elaborate on this?
Please also elaborate on “Well there's a lot of data to go into about that. And also the parts you mentioned about your coach...this is PERFECT timing for your chart, because the planets in your inner development houses too, the 12th house”.
I would love to be in close physical proximity with Taurus by 13th November and would like to take up the more personal verbal communication again, but I tell you this is very difficult. Let me explain why. First of all Taurus, his name is XXXXX XXXXX will call him this from now on, is shy, hiding his feelings for me in front of others plus he is afraid or has been (I do not know which) what others may think if we create a relationship, he is also stubborn plus yesterday you confirmed a hunch that I have had for a long time that he wanted or wants to give med space so that I could heal – very likely - he is a psychologist and has been through divorce himself so he knows all about what I am going through.
Moreover from June through August (except July because of the summer holiday) our friendship was growing via our private talks, where we are in life, our relationships, his that did not work and mine that I was going to leave, he told me many personal stories about things that happened in the past (he cried on a few occasions and so did I – we consoled each other -, we started hugging, the hugging became more intense, his mood started changing – I do not know why, but I think he was not ready himself to commit, as he had recently parted with his girlfriend through many years, I was about to break out of mine. Then when we came back from our summer holiday he was thrilled to see me again, BIG WARM HUG and I updated him on what had happened while we were away and that was quite a lot. Two days later he became more distant. I confronted him and asked why. He gave me a strange explanation which presumably ended up in a lie – telling me that a friend of his – which later in the story suddenly became a girlfriend – had told him to be careful about how to interact and act towards other people (not be too caring unless he means it – my interpretation), he started shaking, fumbling and crying. I asked him do you have a girlfriend now and he pulled back the chair and said (I still believe with a smile in his eyes while crying – very strange) Yes – hey – it has been 6 months now and life goes on – then I said, but I thought you and I were friends what about our talks.. He said they will stay here. I got so sad that I left the office, drove into the forest and cried my lungs out and did not go to work for two days. He knew why I was not there – then started a period app 1½ month where he was playing mind games with me. I was advised to be strictly professional with him, but still letting him know that I was there without chasing him. That was a dreadful period. Then app 1 month ago both he and I started to get more normal and he has been very nice, forthcoming, warm etc. towards me. He is still hiding his feelings for me in front of other, but there is no doubt he is so MUCH attracted to me, he checks up on me that I am in the office, I am sure he is concerned and keeps an eye on me at a distance. He seeks me and tries to hide. I felt his energies again today. There is a magnetism for sure. Then at lunch time I tried to pick him up, on the way out our eyes met each other (he was attrated and very interested), chose to sit close, but not too close and on the same side as me, could not see each other – I had so much hoped he would include me in a conversation, but he did not. Same thing this afternoon – this time though I chose to sit opposite him, at the coffee table saying goodbye to a colleague. He tried to catch my eyes and he tried to include me. He could see I was sad (disappointed because he does not dare being himself in front of me). I am sure he noticed this. I sensed a kind of frustration later when he came by to say have a nice weekend – frustrated perhaps that it went like it did today – Perhaps both a frustration with himself and with me too – I do not know. That is where is often ends.
Therefore, I am trying to get in contact with him – I really want to – but it is difficult – Any advice? Your comments to the story is welcome too.
If you connect with his energies today – then what do you feel?
I was very positive by you final words yesterday that when you connect into him “he senses about your situation very much. He wanted to give you some space so you can heal. But now with the planets turning things will move forward more quickly. But that doesn't mean over-night! Please relax and enjoy the journey of courtship :)”
This means all to me and I do want to enjoy the journey of courtship, but I need help to understand him more and get some ideas as to how to handle him?
By the way, Vihubti (and do not worry I am not going to keep repeating his name ;0)) claimed that he NEVER had an affair or has a girlfriend– it was an excuse and he misbehaved badly which delayed the process.....
Hope to receive your answer today – Lots of Love Birgit