Hello. Thank you. I am feeling somewhat better.. but it's taking a long time!
There's no reason why you can't do both, initially.
In fact, an academic environment and your credentials might even make it easier for you to do so.
I think you may be too worried about too many things and that's stopping you from attaining your true potential.
Don't worry about what's coming, because all of that worrying will be part of what determines the future!
Do you have some concerns over life at home, as well? You don't have to answer that, but I suspect that you do.
Maybe in your marriage.
All this stress is too much, and it's all related.
I don't see anyone judging you based on your income, and if you think there is someone important in your life that finds most of your value in your net worth, then I think this is the time to sit down and express that feeling to get it off your shoulders.
You are acting as though each day is the day you must decide your entire future. And that's not the case. Take those days and make the best of them. If there IS someone that can affect the outcome, then put your cards on the table with them, approaching the issue in a calm and logical way.
Try doing some research - make the best of the time you can while your work responsibilities are shifted.
If you have lingering concerns that you can honestly say are rational (that's important), then it's time to bring those concerns up with the people involved - and in a positive way.
If you are worried, for example, that your spouse is going to leave you, the best thing you can do is go to your spouse and tell them what you suspect.
Whatever answer you get, you will be able to iterpret into the truth. It's time for you to take control of your life. You have felt like others are controlling your life for too long - which is how things will be if you believe they are that way.
Being in control is a matter of choice. And acting as if you are in control will make it so.