A couple of things I was independent at 17, paid for my own University and have maintained constant employment as a Petroleum Engineer for 28 years. I do not have a close relationship with my parents and never thought of my kids missing me but that explains a few things about their reaction when I said I was going , are you coming? It was much nicer than that but same meaning. I am completely petrified of moving across town on my own, but running away to the other side of the earth seems easier now. Yes my wife and I are not getting along, lots of details but I drink too much. It always seems to work out for me and I am not happy sober. Anti depressants wrecked the only thing I like better than drinking. A company sponsored dry out is in order but it feels like prison so I was hoping to cheat and do on line therapy. If I can show my wife there is a future she will join me, but I don't want to make false promises either. I kind of hoped she would go ‘ooh Oz I'm in' but apparently she has had enough. So dry out clean up and go to Australia and not drink?? Beers with the boys I can fake but wine country?? Or stay here not drink and be unable to pay for University. Swell choices. K you logged off. 2 most important things to me, traveling or at least working all over the world especially SE Asia and Australia and my kids. To complicate things when I married my wife the agreement was no kids and travel the world and no camping. I kept my part she never was asked to camp. She said OK I can change him. Our girls are wonderful and I love them so much but instead of pouting and thinking when is my time maybe I missed it and getting sleepy. So buck up deal what you have forever or do what you dreamed of. Retirement is out of the question after all this I will be working til I die. Believe me I know I have it better than some but it is all relative. Shit I have the easy answer I'll write it on my hand and see if you get it. I am just hoping you can put it in a way I will believe it and follow through. I'll type my blunt answer elsewhere and paste it unedited after you reply
Stop drinking, encourage wife to join, work on marriage and fff nope not gonna work I can bail why not, she gets half, I get fun. Kids might grow up faster they are babied and someday they might appreciate their dad. Shit I don't even believe this but this was last night.. I don't know what I usually do is let shit play out and accept the outcome It usually works if I don't analyze my life too closely. Til tomorrow If I can send this tonight I will just to give you ahead start. Oh if you didn't want to get in this deep just say ‘I give' and I'll still give you a good rating just for having to read this.
K I was wrong you are on the right track, I was looking for rotational work to experience my adventure. I have requested full family ex pat status I don't think they will stay but we can all experience the adventure then decide.
Your comment that I have heard from many well intentioned souls finally sunk in. WHAT Makes you happy? I want to go I will make every effort for them to join me but I am making a stand this is what I want - you all will have the option to continue your lives or join me
Finally figure out how to thank the right person, that last screen is confusing. we will talk soon. I have some buds (girls) that usually help me with these difficult times. althought not usually this complicated I was up until 4 this morning still jacked and big dude in London texted for more info on girls schooling. Flames scored woo hoo Thank you again Cher, your patience and wisdom is noted.
I hope to ask you another question soon, but if you wanted to buzz me to ask how it is going I think these therypist bills may be worth it